My throat hurts quite a bit. Wish i knew where my chapstick was

It'll soon be years and Ill be a vague dream. A figment in your memory of a time much bigger than you and I would ever matter

I loved her fancy underwear. Sat behind her every year to be able to tell her that im the 1 she should be with She had it all figured out Loved me with a </3

Ive been feeling : Dull as coat hanger Pretty as a picture of a patient on a fresh IV Giddy as a gang banger

Top 20 Fav. songs bc of its lyrics

City Noise - Scarling

"City Noise"

Another crowded dance floor
Another empty glass
Another failed hello
It's your alibi
Another splendid lie
It's the bruises that you can't show

It's another lonely sunset
Another starless sky
The nervousness inside
It's the final kiss from a lover's fist
It's the reason why you can't cry

It's a violent reaction
The mixtape in your heart
The answer you should know
How we complicate, a simple mistake
It's the face you make when I go

And we tried to change
The city noise made us strange
So we plugged our ears and learned to fight
We set the stage but we could not engage so we cut all ties by candlelight

Another deep depression
The calm before the storm
The shaking in your head
How you sacrificed - how you paid the price
All the words you wish you had said

It's the rawest of emotions
Drinking to forget - names written in the snow
It's the anxious feel - purging your last meal
It's the secret that you can't know

And we tried to change
The city noise made us strange
So we plugged our ears and learned to fight
We set the stage but we could not engage so we cut all ties by candlelight

:EDIT:currently listening to First To Last album dear Diary my teenage angst has a bodycount && it seems to be the only thing to help things make sense

2+0+0+9= $#%#$!

Its just about official: 2009 is the biggest upset year ever!
Anything and everything has left, abondoned, lost interest, and just move on litterally and figuratively without me.
I dont know where to turn or how to turn. I dont even know how to explain it correctly or even how to react other than wonder why

Ill make my sins, right here, with my friends

ILL MAKE MY SINS, RIGHT HERE,
with my FRIENDS.
-- i know its stand instead of sin. but i think sins is better


::EDIT::

The Plot To Bomb The Panhandle - A Day To Remember

Here's a middle finger
Coming straight from oca-l-a
I appreciate your judgement
it's proved that I can't trust a word you say
those must be some pair of binoculars
that you see every move I make
so I'll never be a liar
but you'll always be two-faced

You'll get what's coming to you
You're blinded by your instincts
I'm not your fucking game
I'm not so easily beat

I'm looking down at this mess that you've made
and I can't believe that I stayed
So unhappy for so long
Where did I go wrong?
I've got to get out of this
my hand is on the handle
We're leaving everything behind
Goodbye for a lifetime

I'll rip that scandalous bitch in two
We'll bring the noise

Try to pretend that I never even knew your name
'cause everything you are disgusts me
(Too bad I can't turn back time)
So I wouldn't be here
what I'd give for you to disappear
so tell me girly how's your edge?

You've got nothing better to do
I know why you can't see straight
I thought you were better than this
but you're just like everyone else

I'm looking down at this mess that you've made
and I can't believe that I stayed
So unhappy for so long
Where did I go wrong?
I've got to get out of this
my hand is on the handle
We're leaving everything behind
Goodbye for a lifetime

I'll make my stand
right here with my friends
I'll make my stand
right here with my friends
I'll make my stand
right here with my friends
I'll make my stand
right here with my friends
I'll make my stand
right here with my friends

Get low
Now I know who my friends are
I'm never coming home

Baby stick on me im gonna stick on you & if you pick me, baby Ill pick you! Z-A-R-I-N-A Ima put it on youu

This song makes me wish I was in a gospel choir

::EDIT::
I want her voice!!


& im not going back. To the rights or in the hole& our bruises are a comin' but we will never fold.
&I was your silver lining as the story goes..but now im gold

Silver Lining - Rilo Kiley

April showers bring May flowers ...right?!