Wednesday, December 31, 2008

The Wonder Years[its a show]

Last night.. we were up at 6 oclock in the morning watching THE WONDER YEARS on youtube!!



I think one of the things that remind me of Sheila, that i have forgetten is her love for the Wonder Years.



In our old house, sitting on her moms crisp, very neat bed, eating clementines..AHH



good times.



The Wonder Years, with that monologue made me think maybe thats the reason I like How I Met Your Mother so much.











Something that i didn't realize, now that i notice, is that song that begins at the begginning of the episode.. i never realized that the guy is actually SINGING!



its such a sad song.lol



well knowing me && how when i like something I dig to find it...











well LOOKIEE what i found:







The theme-song of the Wonder Years is a Beatles cover, a little song called : A little help from my Friends covered by Joe Cocker [how inapropriate of a name]






With A Little Help From My Friends - Joe Cocker








and its sooo different from the orginal, beatles version.




with a little help from my friends - beattles




Rap originated from WHERE?!

Rap music originated in medieval Scottish pubs, claims American professor
Rap music originated in the medieval taverns of Scotland rather than the mean streets of the Bronx and Brooklyn, an American academic has claimed.

By Simon Johnson Last Updated: 3:57PM GMT 28 Dec 2008
Professor Ferenc Szasz argued that so-called rap battles, where two or more performers trade elaborate insults, derive from the ancient Caledonian art of "flyting".
According to the theory, Scottish slave owners took the tradition with them to the United States, where it was adopted and developed by slaves, emerging many years later as rap.
Professor Szasz is convinced there is a clear link between this tradition for settling scores in Scotland and rap battles, which were famously portrayed in Eminem's 2002 movie 8 Mile.
He said: "The Scots have a lengthy tradition of flyting - intense verbal jousting, often laced with vulgarity, that is similar to the dozens that one finds among contemporary inner-city African-American youth.
"Both cultures accord high marks to satire. The skilled use of satire takes this verbal jousting to its ultimate level - one step short of a fist fight."
The academic, who specialises in American and Scottish culture at the University of New Mexico, made the link in a new study examining the historical context of Robert Burn's work.
The most famous surviving example of flyting comes from a 16th-century piece in which two rival poets hurl increasingly obscene rhyming insults at one another before the Court of King James IV.
Titled the Flyting Of Dunbar And Kennedy, it has been described by academics as "just over 500 lines of filth".
Professor Szasz cites an American civil war poem, printed in the New York Vanity Fair magazine on November 9, 1861, as the first recorded example of the battles being used in the United States.
Professor Willie Ruff, of Yale University, agreed that Scottish slave owners had a profound impact on the development of African American music traditions.
Comparing flyting and rap battles, he said: "Two people engage in ritual verbal duelling and the winner has the last word in the argument, with the loser falling conspicuously silent."
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/culture/music/3998862/Rap-music-originated-in-medieval-Scottish-pubs-claims-American-professor.html


all in all... EAT THAT RUN DMC

jay kayy

this is more for Mike.

Monday, December 29, 2008

demon laptop

I AM SOOOOOOO

EFFING[fucking] MAD


i had these awesome videos that i had.
and a ton of goofy and funnny shit.

all kind of meant for here.

and you know WHERE THEY ARE?!

well LET ME KNOW if you do, because i DONT!


Sheilas DEMON possessed [NOT a virus] laptop deleted them


..i hate it
as much i really REALLY want a laptop S0 bad




For Those Who Have A Heart

Dear A Day To Remember,


Why have you waited this long to come into my life.
Your music is like mimicing the rhythm of my heart.
Even though you are considered as "Pop mosh"
You're from Florida && a lot of good bands seem to come from there.
Thank goodness your not one of the crazed Christian bands coming out of there and trying to put your beliefs through music.. UNDEROATH, THE ALMOST.

in conclusion--i regret missing you guys when you came around my area..i should try and not to do that again.

<3 Zarina

"now you'll know exactly what it feels like to be an obstacle in my way"
Danger in starting a Fire


"this is my vengeance for all the wrongs
you've formed against us
....i'm on the edge of the rooftopthinking
nobody will ever know
i hope that you'd want to be the one to see
the distance from the road"
Speak of the Devil


ahhh i CANt doo IT this album is too good. ill be here all day



For Those Who Have Heart

"Twenty bucks says you'll remember meWhen you see me on your TV screenIt may be the first timeBut it won't be the last time"
Monument

Whats your favorite lyrics from this album or the band?



the first hour when being in the city











Im suprised my parents had been cool enough to have us come to NY a day early.



although it is good that they did.



It almost always takes a day for us to settle in a up wind and start getting annoyed with each other and then for the rest of the time we're calling each other stupid bitch, whores[allll for fun of course]



this is a small sample of what is happen via computer... imagine what could be happening when we are recording on our camera.





...sorry for my face im still trying ot get used to be a METAL mouth.



....hope you enjoyed my eyebrow action.





PS-alll in all this first night hasent been tooo shabbby.



maybe if the pictures are bearable enough to make it back to nj Ill post some of them.

...take the whitestone. lawls. although the Throgs neck is near me right now. i can hear the cars on the bridge










Saturday, December 27, 2008

its means something to me

So. Ive been thinking..

I have tendency to get into intense conversations. I seem to hold many things dear to my heart or just close to what my beliefs are.

Lots of times I'm told to chill and relax and shit and I will and other times i dont think Im being all intense or trying to defend a topic too much & i am still told to "chill"

Mostly its by guys and its because they may get intimidated. I dont know.
but
a few things that are indeed close to my heart and something that i believe in.
..Im making this list in order to try and figure out what I don't find important to me.


Important to me:
  • Islam
  • Siblings
  • Honesty
  • politics
  • my dads open-mindedness
  • freedom
  • self-expression
  • liberation
  • sexuality
  • freedom to choose partner(s)
  • music
  • beauty
  • recongnition
  • not being tied down
  • happiness
  • emotional control
  • control of a situation
  • children
  • concieving
  • trust
  • being loved
  • loving[one day]
  • being able to cry & laugh
  • myspace
  • fame
  • warmth
  • REAL friendship
  • Boys/men
  • Independent/ Sundance Movies
  • foreign languages
  • France
  • Afghanistan
  • passports
  • music makers
  • lyricist
  • concerts
  • moshing
  • skanking


&& Not:
  • my mom when shes mad
  • most Sundays
  • poverty
  • molesters
  • budgets
  • Easter bunny
  • Suicide bombers
  • misunderstandings
  • misinterpretations
  • fakeness
  • being unable to stick to what you say
  • two-faced
  • rude
  • disrespectful
  • Hitler
  • George Bush
  • bitches
  • people who try hard
  • leaving others behind
  • the holocaust
  • forgetting others in spite
  • grudges[im guilty of them]
  • Miley Cyrus
  • Hilary Duff
  • Cheetah Girls
  • Disney channel since 2002
  • racism
  • close-mindedness
  • name-calling
  • meth
  • liars




Since U Been Gone - A Day To Remember


Wednesday, December 24, 2008

survey no.1



That Green Gentleman [Things Have Changed] (Album Version) - Brendon Urie
"I never said I miss her when everyone kissed her.i wanna go where everyone goes.. i wanna go everyone feels the same"

Are you dating the very last person you kissed?
Nopee

Your best friend likes your last ex, you say?
I'd say i didn't know that they were into girls && why they were telling me. They should tell her that they like her

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
HELLZ no



What color are your eyes?
They've been brown for about almost 17 years now

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
Only when sitting in the front seat

Will you talk to someone on the phone tonight?
probably, hopefully, not.

Can you honestly say that looks don't matter?
LOL no. Looks matter. not matter how much i may deny it. But i dont mean they matter THAT much. but its an important factor.

Ever kissed someone that smokes?
Not cigarettes.

Have you hugged anyone in the last 72 hours?
Most likely

Who was the last girl you hugged?
maybe my mom or sangina or NOT. my grandmother's still considered a girl right?

Was today a good day?
Its been simple. and physically i havent been too shabby

Where do you see yourself in the next 2 years?
in college, probably Rutgers on vacation, with a license waiting to be 18.

Plans for tomorrow?
Waiting for tomorow to be over!! ahhh its going to succkkk

Last awkward moment?
when i was driving out of our development

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
ALL THE TIME

Think of the 1st person on your top whats your relationship?
sister... i think

What woke you up this morning?
Sangina my grandmother my mom and the TV

Do you take compliments well?
Ive been told i cant take compliments.

In the past week have you cried?
I think i have..or was that last week.. ihad a good cry last week.


When was the last time you were told you were cute?
i think i was told yesterday via facebook.
Gina said my clothes were cute today
A boy in my auto class said it to me last week i think

On average, what do you think you cry about the most?
My looks. && a boy

Are you cheating on someone right now?
lol not that i am aware of

Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
I didn't EXACTLY fall FALL for him. but i came DAMN close and no. we dont really talk.

Do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with?
^^^

If you could do something differently, would you go back?
If i had the energy and ability i would go back to many things.

Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
Night!


If your last ex said they hate you, you say?
"wtf did i ever do to you!?"

How did your day go yesterday?
It was really productive

Who was the last person you saw who wasn't family?
Bismark! He was at BJ's working.

Ever been on a blind date?
Technically no.

Anything you want to tell someone?
Sure i do.

What were you doing last night at midnight?
I was... watching Big Love, THAT SHOW KICKS ASS

Anything you're giving up on?
Yeah. im trying to give up on one person.
But Im starting on more things


Who was the last girl you gave your number to?
Bitnari



How many letters are in your last name?
6

What are you excited about?
Monday!!!!!!

Could you go a month without talking to your best friend?
What best friend? lol i think it''ll be weird, but you'll be here for me, no?

Who's the last person that made you smile?
Adam--while he was smacking my lips while i was eating =/

Do you think you have made a difference in anyones life?
A few people have said i have.. but c'mon i dnt believe that

Last time you had an alcoholic beverage?
a month ago.. maybe two or 3 months



Your thinking about someone, aren't you?
actually i was just thikning about the girl Lights
&& not him

The last person you kissed hates you, why?

I dont think they hate me but if they do its probably because i never called back =/


What does your hair look like?
My bands are fringed my hair is oily and unclean But all its not too bad



What would you do if your best friend of the opposite sex liked you?
WHATS UP WIGGA!?

How many people do you trust?
A fewpeople maybe and they are in good hands

Why did your last relationship end?
Cause I broke up with her because 'relationships' make me feel clusterphobic



Are you happy with your life?
Not really =[

This time last year, do you remember who you were dating or who you liked?
YA I DO REMEMBER!! holy crap i cant believe i was madly into Ryan Simms

Last thing you did before bed last night?
Brushed my teeth

Anything bothering you?
Tomorow. and some person that keeps coming into my thoughts.

If you could have anything, what would it be?
A certain persons love

What's your favorite place you've been to?
DC [washington], Holland & Germany

Do you go to school?
yes..yes i do

Last time you cried?

a week ago or so maybe. i dont cry often


Is green your favorite color?
In someones eyes, and in cemetarys yes.. but its not one of my ulitmate favorites

Do you have a friend that you've known since you were little?
does family count?
Does as old as 4th grade count too?

Do you have work out videos?
not in my house



What clothes were you wearing during your last kiss?
i belive a gray tang top shirt thing and gray and white striped cardiganor a black and red cardigan and lei jeans. OUCHHH why do i know that ?!



What hoodie did you wear last?
the one i am currently wearing ..its a gray and black striped hoody.. wet seal sukkahs



When did you last go to the beach?
when i was in wildwood like the second week of July

Do you sleep on your stomach?
How the hell did you know that?!



Are you ticklish?
Yeah but i dont like being touched in those places

How are you feeling at this very moment?
not pretty..but ok

Are you someone who worries too often?
ehh.. on what and who is the question

What are you excited about?
I ALREADY TOLD YOU!

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Nope


Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
ehh no. i can do without anyone's company

Do you know a few people that smoke weed?
i know more than a few


How long does it take you to shower?
about 20 minutes to an hour

What was last thing you drank?
Sunkist =/

Do you judge people you don't know?
i dont like too.. but i do. im sorry

Do you know anyone who drinks a lot?
yes..what the hell

Who was the last person you had a phone convo with?
my dad

Last person you text?
Lauren

Would you rather go back a week or go forward a week?
Both..but i think forward would be wiser

Do you have any plans tomorrow?
yeahh



Are you in a good mood right now?
listenning to Metro Station.. and its a good song.. so yepp

What are you listening to at the moment?
Thanks for asking! Seventeen forever- metro station

Has a boy/girl ever called you babe/baby?
yeahh and i never thought id like it till recently


Is there a guy/girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you?
a friend.. yeahh but they'll never know everything


Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
yeah..God knows i need my second chance


How late did you stay up last night?
1.

What's a happy time you've had in the past week?
uh i cant remember..maybe auto class

Do you like meeting new people?
Yes yes i do.



Would you like to tell someone something but can't?
yes

Have you ever tried your hardest, but got disappointed in the end?
well when i try THAT hard.. i think i get SOMETHING out of it.. even if it wasn't what iwanted

2 Awesome Halo songs

I dont know if you noticed this yet or not, but i like music, a lot.
Last night i signed myself up for an Imeem. which is a simple website where you sign up [for free] and type in music you want to listen to..and if its there you can add it to your playlist and listen to it.
..I havent made a playlist yet because i just dont want too.
Sometimes i have the weirdest urges to listen to certain songs and these impulses or music cravings that i get just need to be fufilled.
&& so far imeem has helped.
When i learn how to get music streaming via blogspot ill just stream it on here so you dont have to press play to listen to music.
It would only be fair that the poeple who come and visit my page get to read my shatty writing with some good tunes in there ear so the writing seems like it somewhat makes sense.
I also like to write with music playing.. So the songs that have been playing while i was typing:
  • Beyonce- Halo
  • Depeche Mode-Halo
this pattern only came around because yesterday i was in the craving for Beyonces song and when i typed it 'halo' the depeche mode song was listed.
The DM Halo song i believe i last heard when i was living in New York and on Wazina's Depeche Mode DVD.
That song i remember when i was younger was one of my favorite songs. Depeche Mode is special to me because of there lyrics. In almost every song they have like a phrase or a chorus or something in there songs that sink into your heart and make you warm. And the lyrics may frank or just a mixture of simple things. It makes me want to write it down and keep it there for safe keeping or say it to make myself feel better.
CHEESY--BUT TRUE. lol
Its what Depeche Mode does to me and many other various bands/ music/ songs.


The Beyonce song kicks ass because that song also consist of THOSE PHRASES. That make me feel all amazing inside.hah

the Beyonce 'phrase' that makes me feel that way is in the beggining and the Depeche Mode song is in the middle and such.








Halo - Beyoncé
Beyonce[Halo]

Remember those walls I built
Well baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
Woah...

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
[x6]
Halooooo ouuuu
Halooooo ouuuu
Halooooo ouuuu
Ouuuuu ouuuuu ouuuuu

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo[X6]







Halo - Depeche Mode
Depeche Mode [Halo]


You wear guilt
Like shackles on your feet
Like a halo in reverse
I can feel
The discomfort in your seat
And in your head it's worse

There's a pain
A famine in your heart
An aching to be free
Can't you see
All love's luxuries
Are here for you and me

And when our worlds
They fall apart
When the walls come tumbling in
Though we may deserve it
It will be worth it


Bring your chains
Your lips of tragedy
And fall into my arms

And when our worlds they fall apart
When the walls come tumbling in
Though we may deserve it
It will be worth it

And when our worlds they fall apart
When the walls come tumbling in
Though we may deserve it
It will be worth it

And when our worlds they fall apart
When the walls come tumbling in
Though we may deserve it
It will be worth it

And when our worlds they fall apart
When the walls come tumbling in
Though we may deserve it
It will be worth it




Which one do you like better?

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Something You Forgot-Lil Wayne




[Chorus] (Lil' Wayne) I've been lonely, I've been waiting for you I'm pretending, and that's all I can do (that's all I can do mama)
The love I'm sending ain't making it through to your heart (I hope you hear me)
[Lil' Wayne] Pain,
since I've lost you,
I'm lost too
Nigga feelin' like he at the bottom like a horse shoe
Sorry for the trouble that I put you and your heart through

God knows that I'd do anything for a part two,
or to
be prayin' for the day you come back to me,
sayin' that you forgive me
Give me another chance,
I'm needin' it like a kidney

I don't wanna advance,
give me back her hands

Give me back her touch,
I don't ask for much
but I fucked up,
I know I fucked up,
I admit I fucked up

but everybody fuck up,
now this other nigga lucked up

Tellin' me and my clique don't give a fuck
Cause um,
we from New Orleans,
she was from Georgia

She was my down chick,
I was her soldier

I was her gangsta,
she was my shoulder

You were the pistol to my holster .. BANG!

[Chorus] (Lil' Wayne) You've been hiding,
never letting it show
Always trying, to keep it under control (I see you hidin' it mama)
You got it down,
and your well on your way to the top (keep doin' your thing)

but there is something you forgot
[Lil' Wayne] You forgot about the house,
you forgot about the ring
I remember everything,
I just wanna hear you sing
I remember the love,
right after the fights

You can't tell me you don't remember those nights
and if I would cry,
then you would cry twice

To me you are the brightest star under sunlight
See take away my title, take away my stripes
You give me back my girl and you give me back my life

Give me back my girl and you give me back my life
See this is just a nightmare,
so I blink twice

Open up my eyes hopin' she'd be in my sight I remember the time,
I wish I could bring it back

What she mean to me, is what I mean to rap (what I mean to rap)

[Chorus]
(Lil' Wayne)
You've been hiding, (y'know)
never letting it show
Always trying (I see you hidin' it mama)
to keep it under control (but I know you know)

You got it down (I know you do)
and your well on your way to the top
(but I wish you and yours nothin' but happiness shawty)
[Verse 3:]

But I hope you haven't forgot about me up in the livin' room watchin' Sports Center
You were cookin' dinner, I was such a sinner,
but the Lord is a forgiver

You know they say if you pray then you can get your blessings ordered and delivered
and your boyfriend is not like me
Ma you even went and got a teardrop like me
I remember we would sit at home all day
You called me "Butta", I called you "Babe"

My momma asked about you,
my partners did too
I know your daughter will be so amazin' like you
and I know you probably wish you never met me,
and I just wish you never forget me
and let me say,
please don't worry 'bout the women I have been with

No engagement can amount to your friendship
and I hope that nigga know he got a queen,
and all I can do is dream ..
DAMN!

[Chorus] I've been lonely, I've been waiting for you I'm pretending, and that's all I can do The love I'm sending ain't making it through to your heart



this song makes my heart skip a beat.

the angst it got and its like a Mothers Day Letter.


This is how Lil Wayne is so amazing. how something so personal can be so amazing and something that i want to listen to over and over again.

....thanks Josh for having this song on your myspace

Monday, December 22, 2008

Sleet vs. Ice

I wonder whats more dangerous? Ice or Sleet.
Sleet is dangerous especially when im walking on wood or on normally smooth surfaces sleets really scary because my feet skid but i can just drag my legs. I'm able to get out of school early because of sleet on the floor in the street.
Ice is a scary slippery because once your slipping your bound to really fall unless you can hang on to something.But when you have the right balance your good. Although sliding feet can be really tricky. But just before i was on ICE snow and
i was dancing my crazy dance on it && i was good.
but theres also black ice which used to be one of my worst fears when i was younger, along with Tornado's and quick sand, (I was raised in New York City) haha


hmm.



Ice:



Sleet:



i dont know what do YOU think?