Wow this "Freddie Mercury band" as my French teacher and many other people refer to Queen.
I'm attached.. i have this little cravings to listen to the songs.
I had heard of Queen with their song "we are the champions" but never really got into them because that song was so played out.
But i heard "My Best Friend" and then discovered the song "Mustapha" which had me doing a bunch of research via google on dear Freddie Mercury and his backround... how in the world can a song like that come out in the 1970's and just so different.. SO random in my opinion.
But here are a bunch of awesome youtubes..
[I have JUST heard this song & I love it]
Love of my Life
Killer Queen
"let them eat cake she says,
just like Marie Antionette"--how i want to be the girls from the songs.
Mustapha
My Best Friend
THE BICYCLE SONG!!..this one puts a funny feeling in my heart
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
James McAvoy
I can say that this lad [because he's Scottish] is my biggest and genuine celebrity crush.
Genuine being that it just happened! If you were to ask my family who was my first they would say Nicolas Cage and that was only because we share a birthday.
Sean Penn IS ALSO A CLOSE SECOND WITH MR. MCAVOY.
but James.. oh James i love it because when i started avidly watching his movies and he caught my eye in The Last King Of Scotland and not Narnia
anyways if you people are unaware who this very strapping young lad is take a look at the youtube.
the best thing about James McAvoy is that he's not like amazing but he's so subtle and just has that "thing". He's always playing the most desirable characters and doing it well
... i shall one day soon do one on Sean Penn
Genuine being that it just happened! If you were to ask my family who was my first they would say Nicolas Cage and that was only because we share a birthday.
Sean Penn IS ALSO A CLOSE SECOND WITH MR. MCAVOY.
but James.. oh James i love it because when i started avidly watching his movies and he caught my eye in The Last King Of Scotland and not Narnia
anyways if you people are unaware who this very strapping young lad is take a look at the youtube.
the best thing about James McAvoy is that he's not like amazing but he's so subtle and just has that "thing". He's always playing the most desirable characters and doing it well
... i shall one day soon do one on Sean Penn
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Caluculator Confessions
I feel like a total mute, hypocrit. Ive never been good with expressing my emotions so what would he want from me!?
I promised myself.. I FUCKING PROMISED that i wouldn't fall or be have "cloudy eyes" for anyone. I guess I thought that i had the power to do it. I thought i had seen it all and experienced and was able to avoid it. But now Im stuck hogging the computer staying up late, scribbling in a book recording my ways in attempt to one day look back and maybe if i write it down and get out of my head it'll stay out and not come back.
Today i found myself writing the following:
i dont know why my mind keeps wandering, wondering what he is doing, how everything felt different when he was still around in the sense they were bearable times, and if i ever cross his mind in a truly honest unselfish way.
and the worst part about that is that i was typing it on a gift from the person who actually wants me and gives me the time. Who gives me so much and im just completely unable to respond, i wouldnt know how too!
Plus, he doesn't want me. Im no good. I dont even want myself.
Ive been thinking about when the one that has made me find this dark spots and realize this sadness(?) finally does leave my life i will probably then know how it is to be disattached.
I hope that it will pass but until it does, i think im going to practice the ways of being a "loner" lol
haa i wish.
All this has just helped me see things in a different light, a darker light, a dim illumination with drastic UV rays of emotion.. so much so my heart hurts.. or something in that area. No joke.
haa im getting old, quick. && i havent seen much other than this.
Im doing it for myself.. promise =]
on the inside im going to be living by this title [Me Myself and I]
Me myself and I - Beyounce
ALL THE LADIES IF U FEEL ME HELP ME SING IT OUT......
(MAN TALKING)
(VERSE 1)
I CANT BELIVE I BELIEVED
EVERYTHING WE HAD WOULD LAST
SO YOUNG AND NAIVE FOR ME TO THINK
SHE WAS FROM YOUR PAST
SILLY OF ME TO DREAM OF
ONE DAY HAVING YOUR KIDS
LOVE IS SO BLIND
IT FEELS RIGHT WHEN ITS WRONG
I CANT BELIEVE I FELL FOR YOUR SCHEMES
I'M SMARTER THAN THAT
SO DUMB AND NAIVE TO BELIEVE THAT
WITH ME YOU'RE A CHANGED MAN
FOOLISH OF ME TO COMPETE
WHEN YOU CHEAT WITH LOOSE WOMEN
IT TOOK ME SOME TIME BUT NOW I'VE MOVED ON, BECAUSE I REALIZED I GOT…
(CHORUS) Harmonized
ME, MYSELF AND I
THAT'S ALL I GOT IN THE END
THAT'S WHAT I FOUND OUT
AND IT AINT NO NEED TO CRY
I TOOK A VOW THAT FROM NOW ON
I'M GON'NA BE MY OWN BEST FRIEND
ME, MYSELF AND I
THATS ALL I GOT IN THE END
THATS WHAT I FOUND OUT
AND IT AINT NO NEED TO CRY
I TOOK A VOW THAT FROM NOW ON
I'M GON'NA BE MY OWN BEST FRIEND
(VERSE 2)
CONTROLLING, YOU SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME
BUT YOU DONT
YOUR FAMILY TOLD ME ONE DAY
I WOULD SEE IT ON MY OWN
NEXT THING I KNOW I'M DEALING
WITH YOUR THREE KIDS IN MY HOME
LOVE IS SO BLIND IT FEELS RIGHT WHEN ITS WRONG
NOW THAT ITS OVER
STOP CALLING ME
COME PICK UP YO CLOTHING
NO NEED TO FRONT LIKE YA STILL WIT ME
ALL YOUR HOMIES KNOW
EVEN YOUR VERY BEST FRIEND
TRIED TO WARN ME ON THE LOW
IT TOOK ME SOME TIME
BUT NOW I AM STRONG, BECAUSE I REALIED I'VE GOT……
REPEAT CHORUS
BRIDGE (BROKEN IN TWO PARTS)
I GOT ME, MYSELF AND I
I KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER DISAPOINT MYSELF
My eyes HAVE CRIED A THOUSAND TIMES
ALL THE LADIES IF YOU FEEL ME HELP ME SING IT OUT
I CAN'T REGRET TIME SPENT WITH YOU
YEAH YOU HURT ME BUT I LEARNED A LOT ALONG THE WAY
IT'S HOW I LEARNED TO MAKE IT THROUGH
AFTER ALL THE RAIN YOU SEE THE SUN COME OUT AGAIN
NOW I'VE GOT ME, MYSELF AND I
YEAH, I KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER DISAPOINT MYSELF
My eyes HAVE CRIED A THOUSAND TIMES
I'VE CRIED, ALL THE LADIES IF YOU FEEL ME HELP ME SING IT OUT
I CAN'T REGRET TIME SPENT WITH YOU
YEAH YOU HURT ME BUT I LEARNED A LOT ALONG THE WAY
IT'S HOW I LEARNED TO MAKE IT THROUGH
AFTER ALL THE RAIN YOU'LL SEE THE SUN COME OUT AGAIN, YEAH-AH-EE
(OH OH OH OOH OOH OOOH OOOH OOOOH OOOOH OOOOOH OOOOOH OOOOOH OOOOOOH OOOOOOH UHOOO UHOOO YEAH AH)
I GOT ME, MYSELF AND I
ME, MYSELF AND I
MY eyes HAVE CRIED A THOUSAND TIMES
I HAVE CRIED SO MANY TIMES
I CAN'T REGRET TIME SPENT WITH YOU
I CAN'T REGRET TIME SPENT WITH YOU
IT'S HOW I LEARNED TO MAKE IT THROUGH
AFTER ALL THE RAIN YOU'LL SEE THE SUN COME OUT AGAIN!
I GOT ME, MYSELF AND I
I KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER DISAPOINT MYSELF
MY eyes HAVE CRIED A THOUSAND TIMES
IF YOU'VE CRY A THOUSAND TIMES, LADIES YOU WILL SURVIVE
I CAN'T REGRET TIME SPENT WITH YOU
YEAH YOU HURT ME BUT I LEARNED A LOT ALONG THE WAY
IT'S HOW I LEARNED TO MAKE IT THROUGH
I CAN SEE THE SUN SHINE, I'VE GOT ME, MYSELF AND I
but i soon hope to like this on the outside.[Diva]
Diva - Beyoncé
I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a
Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
Stop the track, let me state facts
I told you give me a minute and I'll be right back
Fifty million round the world
And they said that I couldn't get it
I done got so sick and filthy with Benji's, I can't spend
How you gone be talkin' shit?
You act like I just got up in it
Been the number one diva in this game for a minute
I know you read the paper
The one that they call a queen
Every radio round the world know me
'Cause that's where I be
I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a
Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
When he pull up, wanna pop my hood up
Bet he better have a six pack in the cooler
Getting money, divas getting money
If you ain't getting money then you ain't got nothing for me
Tell me somethin' where your boss at?
Where my ladies up in there that like to talk back
I wanna see ya, I'd like to meet cha
What you said, she ain't no diva
Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
Since fifteen in my stilettos been struttin' in this game
What's your age? Was the question they asked when I hit the stage
I'm a diva, best believe her, you see her, she getting paid
She ain't callin' him to greet her, don't need him, her bed's made
This is a stick up, stick up
I need them bags, uh, that money
A stick up, stick up
You see them ask, where that money?
All my ladies get it up
I see you, I do the same
Take it to another level
No passengers on my plane
I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva
This is a stick, up stick up
I need them bags, uh, that money
Stick up, stick up
You see them ask where that money
Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
I'm a, a diva, I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
&& Gina suggested this song for me:
--from how shes seen me over the months--
Never Ever - Ciara
(Young Jeezy & Pow La Don)
Throw yo' hands up in the air
If ya know he love ya
Tell the DJ play this song right here
If ya know he love ya
Let, let, let, let me see you 2-step
If ya know he love ya
It don't matter if you by yourself
If ya know he love ya
(Ciara)
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
I know you think that I just be trippin' on ya
Boy you see, this ain't how I normally be
But I can't help this jealousy
Ooh it's taking over me, ooh I'm falling way to deep
Without you by my side I feel like I can't eat or sleep
But I, got to come down to earth, I don't wanna
But I, gotta let you go, but baby I dont wanna
And I, I gotta see, that you and me, ain't meant to be
That's why I tell myself
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
Baby, I can't help but fantasize
Wondering what it might be like
You and I sound so right
But I'mma let it go tonight, it ain't nothin'
Coverin' my eyes
Ain't gonna see it more than twice
I get it, I got it
Baby, baby
But I, got to come down to earth, I don't wanna
But I, gotta let you go, but baby I dont wanna
And I, I gotta see, that you and me, ain't meant to be
That's why I tell myself
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
(Young Jeezy)
Alright, alright, alright, okay...
I see ya point, I must admit
I grind, I grind, I grind all day
This paper's what I'm trynna get
Now normally when I'm paper chasing, I be having tunnel vision
And if it's really like that lady, just turn on ya television
And there go Young, I said there go Young, you trynna get it did
Just know I gets it done, she love the way I cheat
She love the way I move, I sha, I show it to her
Shows about 100, goon
Its blacks this, black that
Black car, black flags
I really hope that's money that ya'll got off in them black bags
808's & heartbreak, states who puts in interstates
Giving me a bad vibe, guess I'm just a bad guy
(Ciara)
Throw yo' hands up in the air
If ya know he love ya
Tell the DJ play this song right here
If ya know he love ya
Let, let, let, let me see you 2-step
If ya know he love ya
It don't matter if you by yourself
If ya know he love ya
I promised myself.. I FUCKING PROMISED that i wouldn't fall or be have "cloudy eyes" for anyone. I guess I thought that i had the power to do it. I thought i had seen it all and experienced and was able to avoid it. But now Im stuck hogging the computer staying up late, scribbling in a book recording my ways in attempt to one day look back and maybe if i write it down and get out of my head it'll stay out and not come back.
Today i found myself writing the following:
i dont know why my mind keeps wandering, wondering what he is doing, how everything felt different when he was still around in the sense they were bearable times, and if i ever cross his mind in a truly honest unselfish way.
and the worst part about that is that i was typing it on a gift from the person who actually wants me and gives me the time. Who gives me so much and im just completely unable to respond, i wouldnt know how too!
Plus, he doesn't want me. Im no good. I dont even want myself.
Ive been thinking about when the one that has made me find this dark spots and realize this sadness(?) finally does leave my life i will probably then know how it is to be disattached.
I hope that it will pass but until it does, i think im going to practice the ways of being a "loner" lol
haa i wish.
All this has just helped me see things in a different light, a darker light, a dim illumination with drastic UV rays of emotion.. so much so my heart hurts.. or something in that area. No joke.
haa im getting old, quick. && i havent seen much other than this.
Im doing it for myself.. promise =]
on the inside im going to be living by this title [Me Myself and I]
Me myself and I - Beyounce
ALL THE LADIES IF U FEEL ME HELP ME SING IT OUT......
(MAN TALKING)
(VERSE 1)
I CANT BELIVE I BELIEVED
EVERYTHING WE HAD WOULD LAST
SO YOUNG AND NAIVE FOR ME TO THINK
SHE WAS FROM YOUR PAST
SILLY OF ME TO DREAM OF
ONE DAY HAVING YOUR KIDS
LOVE IS SO BLIND
IT FEELS RIGHT WHEN ITS WRONG
I CANT BELIEVE I FELL FOR YOUR SCHEMES
I'M SMARTER THAN THAT
SO DUMB AND NAIVE TO BELIEVE THAT
WITH ME YOU'RE A CHANGED MAN
FOOLISH OF ME TO COMPETE
WHEN YOU CHEAT WITH LOOSE WOMEN
IT TOOK ME SOME TIME BUT NOW I'VE MOVED ON, BECAUSE I REALIZED I GOT…
(CHORUS) Harmonized
ME, MYSELF AND I
THAT'S ALL I GOT IN THE END
THAT'S WHAT I FOUND OUT
AND IT AINT NO NEED TO CRY
I TOOK A VOW THAT FROM NOW ON
I'M GON'NA BE MY OWN BEST FRIEND
ME, MYSELF AND I
THATS ALL I GOT IN THE END
THATS WHAT I FOUND OUT
AND IT AINT NO NEED TO CRY
I TOOK A VOW THAT FROM NOW ON
I'M GON'NA BE MY OWN BEST FRIEND
(VERSE 2)
CONTROLLING, YOU SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME
BUT YOU DONT
YOUR FAMILY TOLD ME ONE DAY
I WOULD SEE IT ON MY OWN
NEXT THING I KNOW I'M DEALING
WITH YOUR THREE KIDS IN MY HOME
LOVE IS SO BLIND IT FEELS RIGHT WHEN ITS WRONG
NOW THAT ITS OVER
STOP CALLING ME
COME PICK UP YO CLOTHING
NO NEED TO FRONT LIKE YA STILL WIT ME
ALL YOUR HOMIES KNOW
EVEN YOUR VERY BEST FRIEND
TRIED TO WARN ME ON THE LOW
IT TOOK ME SOME TIME
BUT NOW I AM STRONG, BECAUSE I REALIED I'VE GOT……
REPEAT CHORUS
BRIDGE (BROKEN IN TWO PARTS)
I GOT ME, MYSELF AND I
I KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER DISAPOINT MYSELF
My eyes HAVE CRIED A THOUSAND TIMES
ALL THE LADIES IF YOU FEEL ME HELP ME SING IT OUT
I CAN'T REGRET TIME SPENT WITH YOU
YEAH YOU HURT ME BUT I LEARNED A LOT ALONG THE WAY
IT'S HOW I LEARNED TO MAKE IT THROUGH
AFTER ALL THE RAIN YOU SEE THE SUN COME OUT AGAIN
NOW I'VE GOT ME, MYSELF AND I
YEAH, I KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER DISAPOINT MYSELF
My eyes HAVE CRIED A THOUSAND TIMES
I'VE CRIED, ALL THE LADIES IF YOU FEEL ME HELP ME SING IT OUT
I CAN'T REGRET TIME SPENT WITH YOU
YEAH YOU HURT ME BUT I LEARNED A LOT ALONG THE WAY
IT'S HOW I LEARNED TO MAKE IT THROUGH
AFTER ALL THE RAIN YOU'LL SEE THE SUN COME OUT AGAIN, YEAH-AH-EE
(OH OH OH OOH OOH OOOH OOOH OOOOH OOOOH OOOOOH OOOOOH OOOOOH OOOOOOH OOOOOOH UHOOO UHOOO YEAH AH)
I GOT ME, MYSELF AND I
ME, MYSELF AND I
MY eyes HAVE CRIED A THOUSAND TIMES
I HAVE CRIED SO MANY TIMES
I CAN'T REGRET TIME SPENT WITH YOU
I CAN'T REGRET TIME SPENT WITH YOU
IT'S HOW I LEARNED TO MAKE IT THROUGH
AFTER ALL THE RAIN YOU'LL SEE THE SUN COME OUT AGAIN!
I GOT ME, MYSELF AND I
I KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER DISAPOINT MYSELF
MY eyes HAVE CRIED A THOUSAND TIMES
IF YOU'VE CRY A THOUSAND TIMES, LADIES YOU WILL SURVIVE
I CAN'T REGRET TIME SPENT WITH YOU
YEAH YOU HURT ME BUT I LEARNED A LOT ALONG THE WAY
IT'S HOW I LEARNED TO MAKE IT THROUGH
I CAN SEE THE SUN SHINE, I'VE GOT ME, MYSELF AND I
but i soon hope to like this on the outside.[Diva]
Diva - Beyoncé
I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a
Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
Stop the track, let me state facts
I told you give me a minute and I'll be right back
Fifty million round the world
And they said that I couldn't get it
I done got so sick and filthy with Benji's, I can't spend
How you gone be talkin' shit?
You act like I just got up in it
Been the number one diva in this game for a minute
I know you read the paper
The one that they call a queen
Every radio round the world know me
'Cause that's where I be
I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a
Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
When he pull up, wanna pop my hood up
Bet he better have a six pack in the cooler
Getting money, divas getting money
If you ain't getting money then you ain't got nothing for me
Tell me somethin' where your boss at?
Where my ladies up in there that like to talk back
I wanna see ya, I'd like to meet cha
What you said, she ain't no diva
Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
Since fifteen in my stilettos been struttin' in this game
What's your age? Was the question they asked when I hit the stage
I'm a diva, best believe her, you see her, she getting paid
She ain't callin' him to greet her, don't need him, her bed's made
This is a stick up, stick up
I need them bags, uh, that money
A stick up, stick up
You see them ask, where that money?
All my ladies get it up
I see you, I do the same
Take it to another level
No passengers on my plane
I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
I'm a, I'm a, a diva
This is a stick, up stick up
I need them bags, uh, that money
Stick up, stick up
You see them ask where that money
Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
Na, na, na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
I'm a, a diva, I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, I'm a, I'm a, a diva
I'm a, I'm a, a diva, I'm a, I'm a, a diva, hey
&& Gina suggested this song for me:
--from how shes seen me over the months--
Never Ever - Ciara
(Young Jeezy & Pow La Don)
Throw yo' hands up in the air
If ya know he love ya
Tell the DJ play this song right here
If ya know he love ya
Let, let, let, let me see you 2-step
If ya know he love ya
It don't matter if you by yourself
If ya know he love ya
(Ciara)
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
I know you think that I just be trippin' on ya
Boy you see, this ain't how I normally be
But I can't help this jealousy
Ooh it's taking over me, ooh I'm falling way to deep
Without you by my side I feel like I can't eat or sleep
But I, got to come down to earth, I don't wanna
But I, gotta let you go, but baby I dont wanna
And I, I gotta see, that you and me, ain't meant to be
That's why I tell myself
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
Baby, I can't help but fantasize
Wondering what it might be like
You and I sound so right
But I'mma let it go tonight, it ain't nothin'
Coverin' my eyes
Ain't gonna see it more than twice
I get it, I got it
Baby, baby
But I, got to come down to earth, I don't wanna
But I, gotta let you go, but baby I dont wanna
And I, I gotta see, that you and me, ain't meant to be
That's why I tell myself
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
(Young Jeezy)
Alright, alright, alright, okay...
I see ya point, I must admit
I grind, I grind, I grind all day
This paper's what I'm trynna get
Now normally when I'm paper chasing, I be having tunnel vision
And if it's really like that lady, just turn on ya television
And there go Young, I said there go Young, you trynna get it did
Just know I gets it done, she love the way I cheat
She love the way I move, I sha, I show it to her
Shows about 100, goon
Its blacks this, black that
Black car, black flags
I really hope that's money that ya'll got off in them black bags
808's & heartbreak, states who puts in interstates
Giving me a bad vibe, guess I'm just a bad guy
(Ciara)
Throw yo' hands up in the air
If ya know he love ya
Tell the DJ play this song right here
If ya know he love ya
Let, let, let, let me see you 2-step
If ya know he love ya
It don't matter if you by yourself
If ya know he love ya
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Thinking of You-Katy Perry
Its crazy how much i can relate to this song.
NOT IN THE WHORRY way she does in the video.[ha]
but it kind of makes me sad.
Thinking Of You (Live Acoustic Version) - Katy Perry
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of a winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the water's I will test
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
NOT IN THE WHORRY way she does in the video.[ha]
but it kind of makes me sad.
Thinking Of You (Live Acoustic Version) - Katy Perry
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of a winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the water's I will test
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
Sunday, March 1, 2009
& I know she loves me;Shes loves everybody.
Its going to be a busy week ahead of me.
Its March first today and my menstrual cycle for February has passed. (YEAH ILL ADVERTISE VIA BLOGSPOT)-haha-
Right now im suppose to be studying some Anatomy &Phsyology stuff and i promise i shall get around to it! &&then read over some English notes i took for the different parts of the hspa section. stop rushing me!
Last night i was feeling terrible and i wasn't sure if it was because how a certain someone had not called me and we parted on kind of confusing, possibly misunderstood terms. Or how i felt so foolish how i ended a conversation Friday night with another person via aim, i was just so embarassed and manage to do it twice in one day.
Then there was the whole dillema where i tried to open to Sangina about what it was that was bothering me, we tried figuring me out.
What came out of that was the understanding that I simply dont respect or love myself enough to want or be willing to let others in.
I know who/what i want. And i know who i have available and what i could get but i want who i want although they dont offer much and probably dont want me.
I know im doing emotionally better from the last time i was hung up on this. 1/29/09
On top of all that insecurity and just internal drama there is my teen angst of feeling so unfufilled at age 17. Makes me kind of amused thinking like this but im seventeen and i haven't done anything i am proud or remorseful about. I feel as if ive been 13 for a while living at the rate of 55 year old. Everything in moderation.
WHY DO i need moderation. I want to abuse things, i want to have the door to my house swing open and close when i want it to. I want to be trusted, I have never given any reason not too.
Gina concluded that i need to stop planning and take things slow. I remembered how when i was 5 and before i started kindergarden i had this whole thing in my head mapped out. the way i wanted to look, the kind of title i wanted in school, how i would never touch a ciggarette, never curse, how beautiful my hair would look.
&& since i was 5 things have changed and something i can say that i have at least learned is that nothing ever works out how you see it in your head.
The conversation ended when me and sangina almost got into an arguement about how i should stop comparing my life to the kids around me and i contradicted her.
In the end i guess i learned i have to keep looking forward but not over the hill. Keep plans at a steady pace open for disapointment. Im sure ill get something out of it.
But i also want to have freedom and the ability to spend time with my family everyday and have 1 day a week with people other than those that see me everyday.
I want to blossom and feel accepted and i know that being around my family 24/7 isn't getting me that. I told sangina how it scares me, how im counting the days till I turn 18. I dont want to do that i dont want to have to use the excuse that im 18 and im free. i WANT to know im free and not get sick of my parents. i want them for guidance when asked and not clinging on me with expectations because I know i will disapoint them.
Its March first today and my menstrual cycle for February has passed. (YEAH ILL ADVERTISE VIA BLOGSPOT)-haha-
Right now im suppose to be studying some Anatomy &Phsyology stuff and i promise i shall get around to it! &&then read over some English notes i took for the different parts of the hspa section. stop rushing me!
Last night i was feeling terrible and i wasn't sure if it was because how a certain someone had not called me and we parted on kind of confusing, possibly misunderstood terms. Or how i felt so foolish how i ended a conversation Friday night with another person via aim, i was just so embarassed and manage to do it twice in one day.
Then there was the whole dillema where i tried to open to Sangina about what it was that was bothering me, we tried figuring me out.
What came out of that was the understanding that I simply dont respect or love myself enough to want or be willing to let others in.
I know who/what i want. And i know who i have available and what i could get but i want who i want although they dont offer much and probably dont want me.
I know im doing emotionally better from the last time i was hung up on this. 1/29/09
On top of all that insecurity and just internal drama there is my teen angst of feeling so unfufilled at age 17. Makes me kind of amused thinking like this but im seventeen and i haven't done anything i am proud or remorseful about. I feel as if ive been 13 for a while living at the rate of 55 year old. Everything in moderation.
WHY DO i need moderation. I want to abuse things, i want to have the door to my house swing open and close when i want it to. I want to be trusted, I have never given any reason not too.
Gina concluded that i need to stop planning and take things slow. I remembered how when i was 5 and before i started kindergarden i had this whole thing in my head mapped out. the way i wanted to look, the kind of title i wanted in school, how i would never touch a ciggarette, never curse, how beautiful my hair would look.
&& since i was 5 things have changed and something i can say that i have at least learned is that nothing ever works out how you see it in your head.
The conversation ended when me and sangina almost got into an arguement about how i should stop comparing my life to the kids around me and i contradicted her.
In the end i guess i learned i have to keep looking forward but not over the hill. Keep plans at a steady pace open for disapointment. Im sure ill get something out of it.
But i also want to have freedom and the ability to spend time with my family everyday and have 1 day a week with people other than those that see me everyday.
I want to blossom and feel accepted and i know that being around my family 24/7 isn't getting me that. I told sangina how it scares me, how im counting the days till I turn 18. I dont want to do that i dont want to have to use the excuse that im 18 and im free. i WANT to know im free and not get sick of my parents. i want them for guidance when asked and not clinging on me with expectations because I know i will disapoint them.
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